Things change - grow up, Gus.
Life is so much better when you decide not to post cryptic blog posts about failures and mistakes and instead borrow your brother’s iPod and run your heart out chasing the sunset and talking to Jesus.
There are common sayings I hear daily.
“ Don’t regret anything; at some point it was exactly what you wanted. ”
“ When you are old you will regret the choices you didn’t make more than those you did.”
As I turn 20 in a couple of weeks I have been looking back at my life and all the choices I’ve made. I know all choices you’ve made make you who you are today.
As I am currently in rough season of life I look back to my season of fruition and sometimes regret moving to LA. I had a great job, amazing apartment, my best friend down the street, and living in the dream state of Florida. On the other hand I worked a lot, wasn’t doing exactly what I loved and felt stuck. Currently I feel stuck again.
Why do I feel stuck? I work a lot, I am once again not doing something I love and feel like I have let myself and others down. I realized my mother was right to enjoy my childhood because it is long gone. I yearn for the days of lounging around at the beach, not a care in the world and being close to my family.
I am learning contentment and growing where I am planted. You can’t be envious of other lives due to your own venerability. I am grateful for my parents and their ability to encourage me in every aspect of life. I am learning at rapid speed there are no real rules or regulations of things you should experience at a certain age.
You can’t put yourself or God in a box. You have to go full throttle after all you want and realize you won’t be perfect and it will be hard work. I have to realize all though I feel like I am on the verge of being reunited with Jesus I am young and really do have my whole life in front of me. I need patience, perseverance and whole lot of Jesus as take on each day.
Regret leaves a bad taste in your mouth and an ache in your bones. The only way to alleviate it is to realize you are alive and God is truly in control. Step in the sun and breath and return at night to marvel at the moon.
Words of truth from my best friend. Because really, there are no rules and contentment never comes easy. Jesus is the only chance we’ve got for actually getting anywhere worthwhile in this lifetime.
I am the one standing in the corner of the house questioning and judging everything when Jesus is forgiving and healing a paralytic. I am the one too concerned with legalism or lack there of and questioning those with a different standard than me.
But here is Jesus, able to forgive and heal broken hearts and broken bodies. And that is the thing that impacted the multitudes.
Because of His compassion and love and concern for the heart and not the outward appearance, the multitudes glorified God. That is the point Jesus is making.
Meanwhile the Pharisees are murmuring judgmental things to the disciples. Instead of teaching the multitudes about God’s great love for them despite their situation and appearance, the Pharisees judged them and tried to make them change. Jesus sat down with the sinners.
There is no excuse for condemnation. Jesus impacted the world not because He told them to fast or because He proved that He was holier than them. He impacted the world because He loved and He did not distinguish between the sinner and the self-righteous. Jesus came for the sick, Jesus dwelt with the lowly, Jesus desires mercy above all else.
It starts with knowing my Bible. There is no other way to see the Lord’s vision until I know His Word inside and out.
Humble, true words flowed from my speakers as I pulled out early this morning. Cornerstone was playing and I kept recycling the thoughts in my head for new mercies. Although my expectations did not start out high, it is still significant that they were exceeded.
It is truly something to watch my friends get serious about serving Christ.
I was humbled and blessed to hear that story of coming full circle - from someone watching God work in my life in Ukraine to taking their own similar steps of obedience. That story of letting go of the past and moving forward with the assurance of Christ. That story of choosing what is right rather than what is easy.
It is truly something.
It is another thing to be content and accept this season with joy.
It is much easier to say, “Lord, why not me?” than, “Lord, have your way in me.”
But Jesus knows what He is doing. He knows what He is talking about when it comes to generosity. “Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!” (Matt. 7:9-11). Jesus has shown the greatest act of generosity in laying down His life for me. How generous He must be to give me the season I have now!
He is trustworthy, He is genuine, He is the cornerstone. The significance of Christ as my cornerstone is monumental in that He is that solid stone in the foundation of my faith. He sets the standard and every part of my life may be aligned with what Christ the Cornerstone has initiated.
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and so much can be lost if I become obsessed with what was past or with what lies ahead. Because there is joy to be found in this season.
His joy, as it penetrates my heart and teaches me to be content, even to be generous today.