Stop avoiding things you don’t understand.

I’ve had a revelation.

Be thankful and rely on Christ one hundred percent or fail miserably.

Let’s pretend that was really easy.

You hit the nail on the head.

Yes, I’m definitely afraid but perfect love casts out fear. And I am not perfect but I am trying. This is no way to try and live life. There has got to be grace and I’ve got to expect to give it and receive it.

thank goodness

that Jesus is full of grace.

Because this is heartbreaking and gut wrenching and it really shouldn’t be that big of a deal to me.  Or should it?

But His grace says it’s not my responsibility to make your decisions.  And His grace says to look at the speck in my eye before taking the plank out of yours.  And my isn’t it nice to know that we have a Savior who encourages us to purge the sin from our own hearts even if it seems to be the most minute thing in order to bring Him glory and our hearts joy?

Why do I seem to keep coming full circle and being broken by the same things?  I just don’t know where to start anymore.  But He says I must start with my own eye and my own speck.  And my vision is blurry and my fears are irrational and this can change.  Thank goodness for that.

I’m not saying

that I don’t like change.  Because that’s silly.  Things change whether I like it or not so I’d probably be better off enjoying change.  And I’m not saying I don’t want to continue things the way they’ve been. 

But I need to be real and really…I’m terrified.  Because things are not the same and people are not the same and it’s just exhausting trying to keep up.

I’m not better than you.  I’m not worse than you.  I’m just different and things are different and I’m losing touch and I’m not saying that’s a bad thing.