This is a balance.
A balance between counting the cost and not overthinking things. I am so prone to approach every decision, however small it may be, with the most complex perspective.
This is adventure ahead of me, this is spontaneity, and impulsivity, and excitement. And there is nothing I’d rather do that hop on a plane or pick up a new hobby or go on a roadtrip. But I can’t always just do that. But there’s that responsibility to count the cost. And I am trying to get my act together and just live life and stop overthinking the future and the uncertainties that come with that. Because overcomplicating is not counting the cost.
If I am taking my cues from the gospel and from Christ, it’s easy to see that life should be simple. The gospel is simple and straightforward, even to the point where Jesus said a simple, childlike understanding is the only way to enter the kingdom of Heaven.
So what is it about me that like to complicate rather than count the cost? It’s fear and doubt and insecurity and the desire to take matters into my own hands. This is not the way of the Lord. His way is to trust. And to weigh my options prayerfully rather than logically.